There are times when the only question I can ask, the only one I want to SCREAM at the top of my lungs, is why?!
I was informed today that my beloved friend and the most playful of companions, Nimuae, was eaten by a coyote. It hurts to think about her. I hurts to realize I will never physically hold or pet her again. It hurts when I think about how I wasn’t there and it makes me angry. I feel an intense anger at having to say good-bye to another companion so soon after the passing of the first. Then again, I understand that she was happy. I could have locked her away indoors, but that’s not what she wanted. She wanted to feel the sun on her fur, to run from bush to bush after butterflies, to hunt all manner of creatures, and to simply be what she is; a cat. And the coyote was simply being what it was. It’s nature. Animals understand that more so than any of us ever will. It’s pointless for me to wallow in self-pity at my loss or fall prey to my own guilt. It hurts me and dishonors her memory and the lessons she brought to this planet completely.
So now I will honor her. I will honor her by doing the things I have restricted myself from doing. I will go where my heart takes me, regardless of the distance or money involved. That’s what she was here to share. Nimuae was here to share her joy and her ability to simply be in the moment and follow her heart, no matter where it lead her. She was, and still is to me, the physical embodiment of joy and bliss.
I miss her and I will continue to miss my little Russian kitty, but I won’t give into pity. I will miss the way she used to wake me up in the morning when she knew I had to be up for school; the way she attacked my toes in the morning when I stayed in bed too long; the way she purred when I picked her up before letting her go outside; how proud she was when she brought her latest kill into us; the sparkle in her eyes, and all 26 of her toes.
Thank you for the time you shared with me Nimuae. I am forever grateful to you and love you with every piece of my heart. Safe journey to your next stage of life, dear one. Perhaps we will meet again some day, in this life or the next.
























